thanks to anyone who took the time to read this and write a response. J I agree with you about moving past the past and lookin toward the future. I felt like all the councelor wanted to do was go back and talk about my past. I felt so uncomfortable it was rediculous. The problem is the councelor was through my college and I can't afford to pay for counceling. It stinks but I guess my only option is through the school.

Also J I also dated a girl that was molested when she was younger. She was my first love and first (if you know what I mean). She was the first girl I completely opened up to both physically and emotionally. Then one day she left without any warning. I think that's also part of why I let no one in anymore, because I opened myself up and it hurt so much more after...