Hi Blue,

I'm fairly new here, saw a few posts on this thread. Just want to say I'm glad you found a safe place to be.

I did not read too many posts due to triggers, but your fatigue, panic feelings, loss of interest in things is because of all the stress and long term pain and fear. As horrible as it sounds - you are responding just like anyone who's been through this long ordeal. You are not weirder or weaker than anyone else, you are just tired of the whole miserable deal and want to feel safe and healthy. That shows how sane you are, you have survived and I honestly know that you will heal, in time.

I respect you and think you have been really smart to get on PC and talk some things out with others. I'm in my 50's, if I'd started getting stuff out when I was a teen, if I had been able to talk to someone and know what you know I think maybe it would not have taken me so long to get as healed as I am. So, you are on this thing sooner, not later and that is GOOD.

Healing ALWAYS takes longer than we wish it did, but it IS always worth the hard work. All the Best to you and your Brother!

leslie