I hope its okay that Im here. I drink almost every day. Always beer, usually between 6 - 10 per sitting. Its not bad yet. I dont drink until 5pm and if I go a day or two without, I dont get sick or shake.
Ive had addiction problems since high school. My worst was 2003. I was on crack and completely psychotic. Ive also had problems with pot and acid. Up until a few months ago I was smoking pot every day from the minute I got off work until the minute I went to bed. Smoking a joint now and then is harmless IMO, but I get compulsive about it. Then I decided to stick to alcohol b/c Im looking for a job and might have to pass a test. Now the drinking's become a daily thing and to top that off Ive had run-ins with crystal and coke. I can already see that this could get ugly and I dont want to go through that again.
I dont think Im ready to swear off anything altogether right now. Ive tried AA, but It never felt right to me. Im glad I found this board. Its nice to know Im not alone in my plight. Thanks for listening.
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