well here i am...guess im here to vent..i saw my pdoc this past weds...work didnt go well...he took me back out..he wanted me to be admitted..im not doing as well as i thought i had myself somewhat convinced,,i begged to let me spend easter with my daughter..so monday..i am to go to the hosp..to face the rage i have inside with 24 hr supervision..he says the rage feeds my depression..im not sure i understand...i few good days then..a few really bad days...what started out as not being able to eat with meds and being depressed has gotten away from me..my mind somehow now controls it..i know i need to go on monday...but i telling you,,i cant tell you how very scared i am..i dont know what to exspect....i dont know how people will think after...im afraid of the rage....but i do know i want to get better.....ive never been to the hosp..i cant somehow wonder and think,,can i beat this alone? second thought.s...third thoughts....all i know..im scared....i thought i was getting control back....so many questions...the problem is i know the answers to some of them i just cant get to them..does anyone understand this??