Let me face it: I'm not equipped for adult life.
It is pretty clear, I'm approaching my 40s I absolutely have no emotional fitness to face the hard facts of life. As a consequence, a flood of disgrace will fall upon me more and more every day.
It is simply great when you are going to face something that you can not face, and that will crunch you. And it will come, no matter what.
Things will happen, ready or not. In the movies the star reacts some way, and finally overcomes hardships, finding himself strenghtened. That is just fiction. Normal people MAY do that, but they are more likely to be crushed and thrashed.
"what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger" is just crap to write in candies. What doesn't kills me, wounds me... and leaves me there moaning. Like a soldier begging for morphine that will not come.
More over, there is no mercy for people like me. I am not mature, I just must be eliminated. One simply is not allowed to be weak. It is natural selection after all, that is how nature works, how could I criticize mother nature? I only would like it was not that slow and painful.
People like me are just like slow persons in a hurried crowd: they get shoved and pushed and stomped upon.

Well, that's all folks. Thank you for being there and listening.

Zivijo, my dear M.. Why don'you post here sometimes? We all need your wit and intelligence.