I'm back in the phase of walking around on the edge of tears all the time. Not really functioning, just laying in bed and occasionally going out trying to find something to do that i'm interested in. But there is nothing. I don't care about anything. I just lay, sleep, cry, stare at the tv or computer a bit.

But there are a few other things i'm not sure about. I'm more impulsive, even though I was already. Also I feel so distracted, like i'm totally detatched from what is around me, in my own world.

Maybe it's just part of another one of my dx (borderline personality disorder perhaps) coming across to me.

I don't know what to do. I've told the team i'm under the care of that I was struggling last week, so they know. Nothing else can be done I guess.

My psychiatrist is on holiday so I can't ask about meds being changed.

My life just seems to consist of waiting, but i'm not sure what for.