I do not want to be around anyone lately IRL- im seperating myself yet again- just a persons breathing sets me off right now

i have so many emotions going on right now- im angry, im depressed, etc. etc.etc. - too many to list- why am i like this i hate this i hate being like this- im not a good person im a bad bad person that no one likes no one loves no one wants -maybe someone could help purple but purple doesn't like therapy or taking her meds- she really needs friends right now- she has no friends she hurts deep inside of her body-she cries inside she cries outside i tell purple therapy is good for her but her no listen

....i don't even know why i just wrote that-what is wrong with me im different right now