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SeptemberMorn,
I too was in an incredibly felonious abusive relationship for 6 years. It took me 2.5 years to get out safe. It's been just over 18 months. I was Dx with Chronic Post Trumatic Stress about 15 months ago.
The flashbacks hit you like a train wreck or a wave. Something, anything remotely reminding you of something unpleasant gets in your head and it won't let you go.
I'd had flashbacks in therapy that my therapist actually witnessed me literally transform into him. I was taking about a time I was on the floor and he had a knife at my throat. My therapist said that I turned my head to the corner, looked at the floor and not only was I reliving it, and took on his personality.
I continue to suffer from flashbacks however with cognitive thinking I am able to work thru them; then at other times it will still literally put me down for the whole day....as in not functioning and if you happen to cross me I'll either cry like a baby or say some very disturbing things about you.
I suggest seeking some help, for I thought I could handle it alone, I couldn't.
Do your research and continue to be active in this group for all of your collective experiences are similiar yet different.
Peace Be With You,
SUNNY
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