Prior to ever finding this sight, a long time ago, I started posting on a board like this, only focused on grief. Over time I made a lot of cyber friends. I even got so close to one older lady, I called her my cyber-mama, and I went to visit her. She knew everything about me, and I her. One day she disappeared. My e-mails were sent back and everything. Sure enough, she had passed away. I turned to the others on the board. Mind you, by the time this all happened, a group of us created a new board, and talked not so much about grief. I guess you could say, we were all in the advanced stages, and could focus on other things, and joke around. We were still all hurting, but we were not as raw as the newly griefstricken. Any way, when my cyber-mama died, I turned to the other board for help and stuff, as they all knew her as well, and nobody was there. I quit posting in November, just to see if anybody would notice, and nobody even noticed. (mind you it was a private board with only about 10 people on it.)
The other day, I posted for the first time since Nov, and noticed that my last post was still on the board so nobody has been posting at all, a not so nice farewell to everybody. I told the creater of the board he could take my name off the security list, because I would not be back, and was deleting all links to the site. I waited two days to see if I received any responce from my so called friends, then I finally deleted all the links. All of this happened since my Cyber-mama died, before that, she kind of held our cyber family together.

It has been a few days, and I really am missing them. I haven't been there in a long time, but now that I took the link off my tool bar, I want to peak in and read. Stupid huh?
I have not received any e-mails from any of these people either. My next step is to send them all an e-mail requesting a response, or get zapped.

Why is it that, people I really care about, always leave me one way or another?