The...day... my son... 24..on the 24th.. his golden birthday...

I didn't know... my ex-husband.. the exact... day.. the exact time.. when.. I would lose my son... and he would become your son...

God knows... my heart... that I put all of my being.. and all of my soul.. into saving my son from you... from the teaching of your ways... from you tormenting him... I made a promise to you God.. as I help him for the first time.. that I would do my very best for my son.. each.. and every day... and I kept that promise...

It is now.. the end... and the promise.. is no more... can't be broken.. because it just.. is no more..

I put my son in Your Hands last night.. for you cerntainly have more wisdom than I do..

My heart... is destroyed.... my soul is destroyed... there is no more ......

with all due respect.. this is not a religious post... it.. is a post from a person... with a heart that has been shattered..

I was entrusted with one mircle in my life.. and I failed...

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