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I agree with Pegasus, I think you're being unnecessarily hard on yourself. Everyone has faults and everyone should learn to accept faults of other ppl since nobody is perfect. It isn't right to believe what other ppl say about you... because they do not see what you know, they see what they see (I know that doesn't make sense) but they don't see any inner growth or improvement of strength even if it is or has occured, because only you might be aware of that. So I think you should ignore the 'wise' advice of the ppl who say such things and concentrate on what you yourself know about you.