Tao,

I always had feelings of total isolation in crowds. I used to go skating with tons of ppl I knew and felt so alone I thought I couldn't stand it. My t said it's called "depersonalization". Your inner self just can't take anymore and it shuts down your feelings to save you. With t and meds to control my panic and depression, I am much, much better. I still sometimes depersonalize, but it is only after a huge, huge stress that I can't handle. Perhaps this is part of what is happening to you?

January