(((((purple))))) my friend. You sound like you need your "bra" a lot today. We're here for you to tell you that you are NOT bad and to encourage you to keep your appointment today. The road you are walking on isn't a smooth one, but if you have good shoes and good support (I don't know about your shoes, but you have good support here), you'll make it. Close your office door so no one bothers you, have a deep long breath, let it out, turn some music on if that helps, know that you can do this. You are loved and cared for.