I'm thinking about finally going to the school psych about being bipolar. The reason I haven't done so yet is that I don't have a doubt as to the fact that I am bipolar (As unbelievable as it sounds) and I really don't want to start the whole circle of diagnosis, medication, etc etc. I know this is something I'm going to ahve to deal with for the rest of my LIFE and that just scares the living daylights out of me. I wrote a bit more about it in my new livejournal,

http://x3bella-x3.livejournal.com/

Please read, and let me know what you think. Do you have any advice, or experience with this sort of thing? I know teens think they are bipolar all the time, and I know most of the time its just hormones, but I know its more then that with me, because I can remember certain things from my childhood (such as being under 9 years old and wanting to jump in front of a subway, or pulling all nighters due to having "the giggles" at 10) but these incidents are a blur, as well as ( I think ) few and far between. At 13 things spiraled out of control, and I thought I had a split personality until someone on the net said I sounded like I might be exhibiting some signs of bipolar disorder, so I read up on it, and felt like I was reading a book about myself, like someone had magically put everything I had been feeling into organized words. It was an incredible feeling reading pages upon pages of information,that I felt were tailored to me. That was 3 years ago. I believe I have BP II with rapid cycling.

Any thoughts?