I was diagnosed at 16 and have been through hell the past 16 years. I am a high school teacher, and unless your school is way different from any I've ever been to, the counselors aren't there to help you with problems like that. I read your blog entries and I am wondering is there anyone else who could help you? Personally, I have found that most people do not want to talk about bipolar issues - not family, friends, or strangers. It can be very frustrating at such a young age. I have been on and off many meds over the past 16 years and right now I am med free and have been for almost 3 years. Most people will tell you that a "real" bipolar person cannot stay off meds and be "normal" but the meds seemed to make me worse. My advice is to mention it to someone who really could help, maybe parents or other close family or friends. My parents were not supportive and I think that made things even worse for me as an adult. I do not have many people that I trust and it can be very lonely. As long as you are not suicidal, the cycling you describe could also be part of being a teenager. However, if your rages/depression/mania get worse, it can be devastating. Please get help from someone, but don't be disappointed if the first, second or hundredth person doesn't or won't help you. Keep trying and don't give up.