Dear OBGirl,

Listen carefully. You have NOT done anything wrong or offensive. I think it is a sign of intelligence to ask questions. You do not offend by asking questions you let us share our experience which to me is a compliment in a way. If I can help you a tiny bit, I feel happy.

If I may, let me caution you a little bit - too much reading can make you terribly self-conscious. It makes you look too close at yourself and it is hard on you. Things will unfold piece by piece.

Many people I've heard of or known do see their alters inside their mind. I do not. I had to keep quiet and I was extremely chatty as a small child. So the only way to keep quiet was not to see inside my mind. So, we turned the lights off. I do not see them or anything most of the time. I hear my alts. I feel their attitudes sometimes and I see nothing and it pisses me off sometimes cos I feel blind. I know, It doesn't make sense to me either. grrrr.

I have a friend and all her alts lived inside her head in a house with different rooms. They were different ages, stages and functions and names. Naomi was very visual with her alts. Sounded kinda cool to me. But people do it however works for them. this way I do it may have saved my life. My bad people would have killed me, or if not they sure fooled me well.

Be kind to yourself and applaud yourself for what you have done to keep yourself alive and functioning in this world. I have carried so much guilt for so little real sin. My bad people convinced me I was so bad and i believed their lies for a long time. I don't anymore, but the scars are there and I have to keep working for the chance to live in peace. I will get there.

Keep asking questions and sharing about your journey. People here will support you. I will support and applaud you on your journey.

leslie and the pixies