Dear frenchy(your name is a killer i dont understand french) take care of you. Be safe. Choose life it will get better. I did. My life was totally horrible and it did get better.

Push for hospital. Make them take you. Tell them the violent thoughts. Please, please,please ,please do not hurt yourself. Do not. You matter and all parts matter. Fight for life not death. You do not have to hurt anyone.

I think your part who is so angry is trying to tell you he/she just can't stand life like it is anymore. You matter, life mattes. Do not hurt yourself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH, BY THE WAY, I'VE LOST TRACK OF HOW MANY ALTS I HAVE. SOME ARE ALTS WITH A FUNCTION LIKE A PROTECTOR OR GUARD OR BUFFER OR DISTRACTOR AND OTHERS HAVE MORE OPEN PERSONALITY AND AGE AND STUFF. LETS JUST SAY I NEVER GET BORED! (IRONY)