I know I've already fought through so much and that's the problem.. I can't fight anymore stuff.. I'm getting weaker in a way, but I'll come out stronger, I know that.. But. I just can't take much more.

I have to go to the police station today to make a statement about a guy who bloody raped me.. For the second time this year.. I have been raped.. How crap is that? How utterly s**t is that?!

I'm supposed to be in college now, but I just can't face it.. I'm staying home until I need to go to the station and then coming back and staying here until I need to go and meet my friend.. I'm petrified.. I don't want to go.. I'm so scared that this guy will get away with it.. Just like the person that did it last time, did.. Even though we had really hard evidence against him.. Yet this time we don't have such hard evidence apart from quite a few people who know what he's like and will make statements and someone who was on the phone to me just before it happened.. And just after and I was in an awful state.. I hate this, I really do.. I just don't know what to do..