Thank you for your replies.

As of today I will have more support around me and I'm hoping just my family will be enough to help lift this a bit.

I will give it until monday before I contact the team again, just because I really think the distraction of the other people coming to visit will help.

I don't know what causes this directly, but I know that what makes things had is that I am scared of life and what's going to enevitably come to me in the future. Just normal life things, running a household, studying, working, all these things just overwhelm and freak me out. I don't want to face them and it makes me sad that I have to. I just want to hide from it all.

I try to do things that I used to love, but many of them were sports which I can no longer do due to physical problems. But I do try to keep active and go to the gym, I know this is meant to help with mood anyway. Other than that I just don't seem to know what to do with my time. Maybe I just havent found some of the things I'll love in life yet.

Anyway.. I feel slightly better today.