At this point I'm totally at a loss. I'm getting treatment for depression and anxiety and I was doing SO SO SOOO much better--depression totally gone, anxiety under control, life good overall.
AND YET I STLL CAN'T DO MY HOMEWORK!
I really don't understand it. I'm on meds, in therapy weekly, have a great home life and am a very smart individual if I do say so myself, but I find it extremely difficult to complete even the simplest of tasks, like gathering information online or finishing vocabulary cards. Inevitably I get distracted by something online, or a book, and no matter what I have to get up multiple times and leave my work area for SOMETHING--bathroom, fix my hair, change clothes, get a book or something like that--I guess I just can't force myself to focus on the task at hand. If it's something I really like, something I'm interested in, I have very little trouble concentrating, but with actual "work" for school or outside projects, it's almost impossible!
What the hell is wrong with me? What kind of disorder is this?? I am so confused and feel so helpless. I thought it would be better this year, and I was so happy because I thought I could do it... I still believe I can... I just don't know how I'm going to get to a point wher I can. :'(
My family has a history of anxiety, depression, OCD and Tourettes, and my brother has Dyslexia (which I don't have--I'm sure of that) if that helps any.
Any clue what this might be??
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