Eva, it sounds to me like your family really cares and they're trying to reach out to you. Having read about your past, I don't blame you one bit for not feeling comfy around them. I went through a similar situation with my dad... except that mine was never around and when he was, well I didn't have fun... ever... so I'll leave it at that. Now that my dad is clean and sober, he's a diferent person. He's kind, loving, caring, and wise. He wants to be there for me while I'm learning to life with all the crap that's happened in my life and I'm just not comfy with it. Could this be similar to what you're feeling? I mean, if your dad made you feel stupid and angry and hurt your feelings all the time, wouldn't the natural reaction be to shy away? But remember, it sounds like he's definately trying to reach out tou you and that's a big step. Take it for what it's worth and if you can, let him be there for you. If you can't, try not to worry to much about it. It's only natural. But it does sound like you apreciate the gesture and that's a good thing. Well, I've rambled on long enough. Please keep us posted as you are going to the hospital soon. Remember that all of us here are behind you. Much love.

Ry