Of course it's not your fault! Why do you say that? I hope you know me well enough by now to know "I get it" I'm not going to disagree with you about the nonsense you and I see everywhere. I agree with your scientific theories, I know it only takes weeks, not years to make good progress.

Some meetings are wacky and some areas of the country it's more difficult. It's organized like these boards, only their are no T's or authority figures hiding in woodwork (and non-profit).

Like I said I'm sorry I hope you are not offended by my advice giving. I'm not offended at all if you don't take my advice. I'm happy to share anything I can with you. I find it beneficial to have many tools in my toolbox. I have yet to find the all inclusive destination though.

Looking back it's all those things you mentioned that kept me away all these years. The Kumbayah factor especially. Cringe! I don't have the stomach for that, it's like I'm swimming through molasses. Yes, it does seem a little cultish. I refuse to associate with the people who take that position as I see here sometimes also with the finger waving.

I was going to go last night, and then I couldn't really remember why I needed it. So I didn't go. Now this morning I think I should again. It's that I don't know which is true thing you were talking about. I just can't think of any thing at the time that gives feedback that's 100% trustworthy.

I wish I had something better to offer you Pachyderm. I'm faced with the same dilemma. Please don't be so hard on yourself. I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to.