Ryan ...thats exactly it! ... I do not know how to except their concern and any emotion or even affection.

I mean when my son was born disabled and with serious heart problems... my dad went out and bought me a cd player...he didn't know what do do for me.

So I do know they care and love me... good people. I just don't know how to accept it without being all uncomfortably emotional or seeming like this iron cold person.

I think what I need to do is get a therapist really quick. I'm supposed to be going a minimum of 3x a week supposedly.

I am not going to the hospital I can't afford it. My family is trying to help me settle some issues that I felt were overwhelming so I'm just taking baby steps.

Thank you so much cuz that helped.

((((Ryan)))))