how bad I think she is. what did she do that was bad? It's just who she IS.

I guess part of what I'm scared of is that the 7 year old wants to tell. *I* accept her and if *T* accepts her, then she's going to open her mouth and she's going to tell and it's going to hurt and be scary.

when I peek at what else there is, it's FEAR.

I hate feeling like this. It's like the little me needs to be held, hugged, soothed, reassured. I feel so exposed and frightened.