Time passes and grieving lightens up some, but all of a sudden I can be hit with a flood of emotions. I guess I need to continue to be gentle with myself.

Being back in therapy helps. Letting myself have all my emotions, including anger, helps.

I choose life. Wish my friend could have chosen life too.

I read the book Why People Die by Suicide and it helped. The author writes about 3 factors that are found in those at risk: feeling like a burden, isolation and lack of connection, and developing the ability to harm oneself.

Fits my friend exactly.

Right now I'm going to get offline and take a walk in the early autumn evening. I choose life.