((Stefano))

I too suffer from clinical major depression and am in the midst of a major episode right now. It is yielding incredible growth for me despite the fact that am scaring the crap out of myself and probably my T and some family members because I have been so low. But, that doesn't mean that I can always grow through these times or that during those times when I am completely unable to even think, I am wrong, or bad or anything. It simply means that my biochemistry at that time is not allowing me to think.
The effects of my life as a child conspired with my genetic makeup to create this illness. I can work with it and learn from it but will try like hell not to beat myself up over it. Of course when "in it" my vision is often blurred. It is so hard to see any hope or light in those dark moments.

Mouse said:
That is EXACTLY where I was this week with my depression only I didn't make the connection to safety until I read your post here. I was in a safe place under a blanket where my inner child used to hide. Now, this is interesting to me, that depression can equal safety. And that's from the inside looking out.