Hi - I am new to this board and was diagnosed with depression and PTSD just over a year ago. The cause for most of my current issues is a great deal of abuse and a rape several years ago. I was always good at "functioning" thought it all and have a life now that many think I should be happy with, but once a survior always a survior - almost everything I have now has been gotten by putting my head down and working without every knowing how I was really doing.

So fast forward to now, I am married, have a house, am a mom and am expecting another baby in a few months but still have the depression monkey on my back. The one person who has always been there for me through the different phases of this journey has been my husband, who has always ensured me that I could (excuse the cliche) lean on him when my depression was at it's peak. I have had a real bad time recently and this + my pregnancy has meant that I have been less than fun to be married to. I can feel him pulling away (or rather pushing me away), which is especially hurtful at this point in time. When I try to talk to him about it, he refuses to speak to me and will not make eye contact with me or talk to me unless I initiate the discussion, which I don't do because I am so down. I know that it's difficult for him to deal with this and me, but dealing with him like this only makes things worse on me and us.

Have any of you ever experienced your depression pushing others away like this?