HI EM,
Hang in there, you took the first step to get through this situation. I would also recommend that you contact your primary physician as well. Tell them what you have been taking, they might be helpful in letting you know how to whine off it at a pace that is tolerable for you. Hope your T calls soon. From what you have told us about him, he won't leave you. He'll be proud you took this step. Stay brave and let us know how it goes