Pat, first off, I wish something would start blooming around here. We keep getting snow every few days. I would love to see some signs of Spring on the horizon. My pdoc also labeled me with SAD a few years back as she noticed that from November through April I'm much worse.

Anyway, back on topic. I think it is wonderful that you and your pdoc have been able to find the right med combo that is really working for you and also that you will be starting therapy soon. I am most envious. I have actually written a whole saga of my meds in the Drug Question Forum. My thread is called 'mood stabilizers' or something to that effect. My meds don't work for me. I've tried and tried til I'm blue in the face to get somebody, ANYBODY to listen to me here, all to no avail. You might want to read that thread for further details of my med history and my frustration with it. I have no problem telling you what I'm on and they are also listed in the aforementioned thread. I'm currently taking, Effexor XR, Wellbutrin, Tegretol, Xanax, Clonazepam. Risperdal had been recently added to the mixture but that was unsuccessful so I took myself off of it. You may want to check out another thread about that whole saga in the General Forum 'back from the depths of hell' or something like that. I'm sure it is no surprise to anybody here that my meds don't work. I'm extremely frustrated with it. I've previously tried Depakote, Lithium, Lamictal, Topomax and Celexa. I do think I might have forgotten to mention Celexa in my thread in the Drug forum. It really does explain in much more detail on what I've been trying to do to resolve my meds issue, all to no avail. I have come to bucking heads with my pdoc about my meds. I live in Canada, changing pdocs is NOT so easy here. Soooooo much red tape, it's a huge story in itself. Believe me, in my frustration I've even tried to do that, also to no avail. I'm stuck with the pdoc that I have. I can't do anything to tick her off or I'll have no one and I think you'll agree that would not be a a very good option for me.

I wasn't aware that you were BP, I don't recall you posting in that forum. It must be wonderful to be at ease and peace. That is what I am striving for. BTW, my home is dirty too, piles of clutter totally overwhelm me to the point that they remain untouched because I feel paralyzed to do anything about them. Logically, I know this only compounds the problem as I keep adding another piece of paper to the pile. I was actually hoping to make a *real* effort at finding some order to this place this last week but going through Risperdal withdrawal unexpectantly put a total damper on any plans that I may have had. Just managing the withdrawal symptoms took up my time 24/7. I also was not here on the forum, hence my thread 'I'm back from the depths of hell' in the General forum. It's about my withdrawal.

At any rate, I'm glad to hear that you will be starting therapy soon and I hope you find it very beneficial. I know mine is really helping me, even if it is not noticable to others here. We have worked out a number of problems that I have dealt with IRL and here on the forum. As I've already said, I'm very new to therapy and I've got a long road ahead of me and a lot to work on. It really seams insurmountable but with my T, I'm hoping to cross each bridge as we come to it and to help deal with all my past traumas that certainly affect the way I respond to things today. It's very hard to undo what I've been doing since a child and I'm sure I'll continue to make mistakes along the way as old habits continue to creep in. But in time, hopefully newly learned behaviours will start to outnumber the old ones. Good luck with your therapy!