Thanks MissCharlotte, Slippers, and chaotic for suggesting the "alternative" explanations for my T's behavior.
Since his demeanor did not match the motive I attributed to his withdrawal, I do feel I was probably wrong in my interpretation. chaotic, yes, my T has ADHD, and I could very easily imagine that he might get up to get something on the other side of the room, get halfway there, then turn to really listen to what I was saying, respond, listen some more, and then forget why he was standing in the middle of the room. And then he would return to his seat. I can totally see that! Heck, I do that all the time myself (at home or work). I think, because of the lack of connectedness at the session, I was very willing to construct and believe negative interpretations of his behavior. Sometimes we just aren't connected. So be it. (I think my T told me once that if we connect 1/3 of the time, then that is "good enough.")
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I think it is good that you are now stepping back and analyzing your response to see if you can understand it and maybe avoid getting repeatedly getting caught up in this mental loop again
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I find PC really useful for helping me do that.
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Do you see yourself reflecting on this situation with him? I guess my question is... now that you've worked this far through the incident and your reactions to it... do you really need to discuss it and find out ... why he move a way from you that day? Does it really matter why?
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No, I don't think I'll discuss it. We have a session at the end of next week and have too much to work on to deal with this. I need a lot of help with "finding my voice" in the divorce meetings, and working on issues that are coming up for me. So there's kind of a deadline for all that because of the schedule, and there is no deadline for, "why did you walk across the room from me?", so we will not talk about it now. The urgent things first. But I think I've worked through it enough on my own (and here) so my need there is not strong.
P.S. chaotic, I think my T is sometimes delighted when my reaction is "weird." Who wants to be like everyone else? It's OK to let your T know and appreciate that you are a unique individual.