(((((((((Earthmama)))))))))))),
MissC was right, many of us resort to unhealthy coping mechanisms because we are trying to dull the pain. You are not alone. I'm so glad that you trust your T! He has been there and will continue to be there for you. I'm so sorry you are in so much pain. It takes a lot of courage to tell your T you are having a problem, and YOU DID IT!!!!!!!!!! You never cease to amaze me, I'm so proud of you!