First I would like to preface my post by saying that I have prior approval from Doc John for this thread. I know that talking about suicide is against guidelines but this is to be a POSITIVE thread and would ask that it please be kept as such.

Ok, with that out of the way, I have a MAJOR problem with suicide ideation on almost a daily basis. I don't think I really want to die so much but to end my continual pain. Personally, I really don't see any hope of my life getting any better than it is now. I'm extremely unhappy with the way my life is and it doesn't seem to matter how hard I work on changing anything, I always end up in this same old place. I'm on meds, obviously not working, long story not worth getting into, and new to therapy.

What I'm looking for is coping mechanisms that anybody else has used successfully for either suicide ideation and/or controlling the depths of your depression. Are you able to control how far you fall or do you feel it is beyond your ability. What about suicide ideation? How do you combat that, how often does it rear it's ugly head?

I'm looking for POSITIVE ideas that could help me and possibly anybody else here that also suffers with depression. Since my suicide ideation is getting chronic, I'm afraid I'm going to act on it unless I can find some concrete ways to avoid it and also ways to help with lessening the intensity of depression.

I hope to get a lot of responses since I'm posting this in the depression forum. Thanks in advance!