You know, it is so easy to be discouraged. I sometimes, have a pity party for myself, but when I see things happening around me, like sons being killed in Iraq, Terri Schrivo, and the suffering of her family, All the real pain and suffering that we have no control over like loosing friends and family members. I feel ashamed when I am so concerned about myself, instead of others. My whining and complaining about about how I should be treated by people, blah, blah, blah, is nothing compared to what some people have to endure. When ever I had to do something when I was a kid, and even now, I say to myself, "I can do all things through Christ, who strengtheneth me" That helped me get past the fear and I would do whatever it was I was afraid to do. I figure OK that is a crutch. But if one is a a cripple, what's wrong with the crutch? This works for me, find something that works for you. You are a very special person, love yourself, don't let anyone drag you down to their level. Peace, Millie