I feel bad doing this sometimes too. I think that is why I often times do it indirectly via writing. That way I don't feel bad in person. Once I remember writing something to my T and in the middle of writing it I had made myself nauseous. I remember including a line like..."I'm making myself sick writing this so I'm really sorry if it makes you sick reading it."

I think this is so true. I remember when I was depressed I just couldn't think about anything in detail. My brain would just quit. Now that I am not feeling depressed I get upset, tend to get thrown off balance and into a lot of unproductive mental loops, but there seems to be a part of me that is able to step back, reminds me that I still have a pulse, it will pass, I'll figure stuff out, there is hope. When I was depressed, this part was absent.