since i was around 13 i've never really been all that happy. i would smile but always deep down i was unhappy. i've never liked who i am, how i look like and what i do. i've hurt my self before and i always tell my self i would never do it again, but i always end up doing it again. i always feel like im dirt, like im worthless and i have no reason to live. i feel like i cant take anymore and i feel like dying.

last night me and my boyfriend had a fight, and he slit his wrists and sent pics of them to me. this fight just tipped me over the edge, and i've been crying all day and i keep thinking everyone is better off without me. i feel like all of this is my fault and i just cant take it anymore. i also feel like no one really understands me, and when ever i tell anyone im upset they never take me seriously and say, dont worry its okay, when really it isnt. im so hurt inside no one really understands how hurt i am.

do you think im starting to get depression? should i see someone about this?