I am sorry for what you are feeling.. I had a bad experience with docs too, as I went to see a therapist for months and all he could say to me was "why are you here?" like I was wasting his time.. the fact that i was depressed as hell and crying myself to sleep like every night didn't seem to bother him that much, apparently I was totally sane to him. Also, he always listened but never said anything to me to help me see things differently, I mean if all he's going to do is sit there and listen, what difference there is between him and one of my friends?
I say, don't trust one single doc. Always ask for a second opinion, AT LEAST. because doctors are humans after all and nobody has all the answers.
This is just my opinion, of course...

I hope everything sorts out for you, sometimes light comes at us when we have already forgotten how it looks like