This is how "life " is for me.
Maybe my black and white BPD thinking is not allowing me to adjust to the gray right now.
I just want to stay hidden, not have to deal with my fears and pain. Not have express my thoughts deep down in my soul.
I keep telling myself I can control it all alone...I have for so long. But I am losing my grip.
Anyone out there want to throw me a rope...without putting me on an interogation of just how hurting I am?