Thank you all for the support. i left town early saturday morn. I just got home. No messages from them.

the 65 mile drive went by in minutes. Like a strobe light flashes of things not rembered in over 11 years. I have very of had very little memory of then. Until the call only remembered the one major trauma. Something happed on that call.

I only I had ever brought up the night of one of their friends tweaked out on meth. the events of that nigh. my being tortured and attempted murdered and the perpetrater (who has since commited suicide) that nigh I was 19 walked down the street barefoot. had no where to go and no mind to even call police.

Only the caller reminded me with his voice, he was there. He told my trauma with his voice I said to him "Wake up Wake up,

been in the system for 11 years. it took me 10 years to ever tell that. I never heard it from someone else, another there, my lover was there i dont know where it all seems so fast

I see my CM tomorrow. I went out of town saturday only stayed in my car except to use bathroom or put clothes in washer/dryer.

Not all I now remeber now is bad. only so many memorys coming at me left and right. I had a migrane last night and stayed awake all night in the car. I was at moms over 24 hours and stayed in the car most.

I think may take time to work out all these rapid memories so much so many. Mom said I did the right thing she will pay for restraining order for both if comes to.

I called the neighbor down the hall tonight cause she good to me and brings me homeade things to eat sometimes. Yet now somewhere in my mind i even feel she is connected to the two and they have got to her and now she's in on it too. I dont want to belive these thoughts only they do exist.

Thank you all so much I am going to be alright I know I have to and I will just have to. I think it may take time. not time to say no or not pick up the phone only take time for me and T to sort and process all theses memory's forgotten for 11 years. -thank you alll -Chris