Actually, even before you posted telling us how tremendous you were (which we all knew ), I was already in awe of and taking in all that about you myself. I was amazed how with all your own stuff you're trying to save your nieces & nephew & I too was wondering how you'd know what to do for them since no one ever was a good parent to you. And I had no doubt even in the midst of all that, they were probably the safest they'd be with you because you'd take the best care possible of them and vigilantly protect them from all the evil crap you had to go through.

As for deciding to keep a shut mouth again about your past, I've struggled with that too after getting into a so-called therapeutic setting thinking it would be okay to open up a little bit more to professionals, but the medically ones especially can't handle it and aren't trained to deal with it. They will treat any ailment like a psychiatric one if they know that about you (in my opinion), so I think it would be best not to tell them. Therapy screws us up about being open and revealing and honest. I feel over-exposed if I even tell someone my favorite color, but I did notice that therapy would mess me up over who and what to tell people.

I hope your doctor apologizes for the way she treated you. You don't need more crap, tell her that won't help you get better any.