I always wonder why we're drawn to more of the same people. I think because it's familiar to us and we don't know any other way. We wouldn't know what to do if someone was nice to us. Well in a genuine way. If anyone's nice to me, I always assume they're going to abuse me in the end. I bet a lot of this is the same for you, at least you know what he's up to and where he's coming from, so you know what to expect. I think right now he's serving as an alliance of your own since the others are ganging up on you. I think that's another reason you're drawn to him, you've sought your own supporter even though he's abusive.

Please, please be careful and try to take care of yourself. It may feel good to be doing it now, but think about how it's going to feel later. Probably won't feel so good then. We don't want to see you get hurt even more. You've been through enough, we don't want more added on your piles of hurt. Let us do what we can for you. We're out in cyberspace but we're here to listen and lend some support in whatever way we can.