Anyone who knows me, knows I HATE change. Always have.

So this weekend, we cleaned out my basement. All the old stuff my grandparents kept is gone. I'm not sad at all about this...lol, it was a LOT of stuff (I have a dumpster full of stuff). It's such a relief to not have to avoid the basement. Heck, I'm on a roll now. Pack rat no more! Anyway...

Last week we learned that the quarry next door will be digging up the field across from my house. In the end (years from now) we will have a lake there. So it's kind of nice looking forward to that. It still makes me sad.

But yesterday, my cousin dropped a bombshell on us/me. Well it seemed like that. He said they got an offer they couldn't refuse and are moving out of state in the summer of 2008 (when his son is out of high school). His brother and sister are there as well as his mom's side of the family.

The thing is...if he goes...so does the farm. While I don't want to farm (it's a rough life), I love living on the farm. I don't want new neighbors living right next to me. I don't want to worry if I am on someone else's property. I don't want to live in the city. I want to mow the lawn for hours at a time. I love where I live now. Close enough to be at a store or restaurant in 15 minutes...but far enough away to still live in the country. Where neighbors take care of each other.

Its not a suprise...but it is a disappointment. I also feel so guilty for thinking of myself...but I don't want my life to change. If they move away...we won't see them much if at all anymore. Just wanted to share.

I don't want things to change!!!