Sweetie, none of us do. Change is difficult for everyone. I'm sorry that you're going to have to make a change, but if you're going to have to buy a house, why not find a small piece of land in the area? One that's not as much as a farm, but that's big enough to give you that country feel? Maybe 5 or 10 acres? Then you could mow to your hearts content and still have all those other things you love about being that far out from the city. It's just an idea. And you've still got a few years to think about it and look for the perfect place. The good thing is that you have some time to save for a nice downpayment. I realize that a nice house and some land isn't your cousin and his family and I know that this comes as a shock but if you can, try to look at the things that could be positive.

Ry