You really don't deserve it. Regardless of what you've done or think you've done to deserve it...no one does derserve to be abused in any way from another person. I, too, think it's true that maybe we wouldn't know what to do if someone was nice to us, but I think it's worth the try. I wish you safety and peacefulness. I also wish you could see in you what those of use here see in you...wonderful, kind, hopeful and helping individual.