I didn't tell anyone this but on Fri I got a voice mail from my director stating that she felt like I was over reacting to the whole meeting thin g and that they were trying to address things that continued to be an issue with my job performance. Mind you none of this came up till I asked for help. I also had called our administrative secretary and asked her for the bill for the guys who put the desk unit together. I was nice and explained that the supers didn't like it so I wanted to buy it back and pay for the installation. Anyway, in the director's voice mail she says she is responding to my voice mails. She said I was over reacting and that I would soon be getting a letter from my supervisor. Oh joy. The message I had left the administrative secretary was simple. I goofed, thought the space was going to work out, it didn';t and could I have the bill. She responded telling me not to dismantle anything. Oh goody, now it's going to be monday and I get to look foreward to crap in the mail as well as other crap.. Is it so wrong to ask for aq space that my things won't be moved from, where I can be organized in my own chaotic way? I just wanted a work space that is mine, that no one moves my stuff when I step out to the bathroom or for food. I took another desk topper thing from my hubbie's desk in basement that I hope will fit on my small desk table so that I have room for things. That alone would make all of the difference. I also found a mail holder my daughter made before she died and put that in the car for my office. I dread going to work. This is an old familiar pattern, when I was a kid I would be able to shut down on evenings and weekends but then have to go to school. I developed a great sense of daydreaming and imagination. I am a grown up now so that's not going to help. Whatever is will be and I will be okay.