The past is such an ugly thing...
it haunts me...
I can feel it day in and out....
all the bad feelings...
all the screams on the inside for it to all just stop...
please...god...just let it stop...
don't know what brought this on today...
no we do know...know so much more than willing to admit...
the fog that lay in mind has been lifted...
all the nightmares....turned out to be true...
feel so sick I do...so sick...so dirty...I am so so dirty..no water can clean me...
just an object...just a ****ing object for others to use..to get their sick twisted pleausres from..just a ****ing object
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
DO YOU ****ING HERE ME SCREAMING...DO YOU SEE HOW MUCH YOU'VE HURT ME....ALL OF THEM CAN YOU SEE NOW WHAT YOU HAVE DONE
spilt me in half...twisted me around........
so angry...so upset...little flashes...of it all...playing in my mind...over and over and over..like a movie..but it never shuts off...the damn switch is broken...sadest part is sadest thing of all...is it all must be a secret...shhh...don't tell...don't tell....don't tell.
you'll get in trouble...don't tell...
they will never believe you....shhh...be quiet...they would all be so upset if they found out...you don't want to upset anyone...
NOONE can ever know...NOONE.
why does noone ever protect me...why...why...