It's been since May and I want to so badly right now. I have no clue as to how to handle the work stress in my life and the crap that is happening. In my sleep and in my day dreams I think of the act. It draws me in closer to actually doing it. So far I have not looked for new tools, old ones burned a long time ago. But the urge is there and I want to do ANYTHING to feel less frightened right now.