Hi Step, abusers are only concerned for their own needs and not the needs of the "victim". You were chosen because he had access to you. Abusers look for the easiest victim. You didn't do anything to deserve any of that. You deserved the very best. All children do. But some of us as children didn't get the best but we can still recover and grow and release ourselves from the pain and move on and have a different life. I am so happy that you are in therapy again....