Thanks Christina for your reply. I do take the Lexapro at bedtime already. I ended up going back to my doc yesterday after all, because I was so freaked out about the early waking and anxiety and the possibility of developing a tolerance to the ativan. He is not at all concerned about the tolerance thing. I'm not so sure about that- and to be safe I'm doing my darndest to use other methods to combat the bad anxiety when it hits (relaxation breathing, distraction, my CBT exercises, whatever!).

I haven't taken any ativan today. I did have a moment where I was starting to feel anxious and I let myself lay down for a few moments and remind myself that somehow, some way I *will* get through this and turn the corner. One day at a time and all that.