I didn't know where to put this thread when I wrote it... I didn't think I could even write as much as I have done and I haven't really said anything, so it shouldn't have scared me about writing what I have done, right? But it did and I had second thoughts... but maybe I need answers. ?
I didn't know wether to put it in here or in the survivors of abuse forum or elsewhere. I didn't want to put it in the survivors of abuse forum because 1. I'm not a survivor 2. It's still happening 3. I don't even know if it's classed as abuse, yet posts I have read and articles I have read say it is. But, I don't want that to be true. I don't want it to be abuse because that makes it harder? I'm so confused. I don't think I'm strong enough to talk about it (well, I could talk about it) I just don't want to here the consequences. If I talked to my social worker or T (which I am on a waiting list for... so haven't seen a T yet) and they believe it's abuse... they have the right to tell someone don't they? But, what happens then? What happens to me family, what happens to me I can't hurt other people in the process.
I'm lost. I don't know what to do. I wish I could afford to move away... far away, move country... I can't even afford to live in a council flat! I have £5 to my name and my doctor says I can't work because I'm not mentally stable enough, so she's written me a sick note so I can claim benefits (I even feel bad about that, it's not right to take money without earning it... it's scrounging)

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