Bless your heart, sweety....worrying about hurting other people by telling. It's time for you to worry about how you are hurting. Abuse is anything--anything at all--that hurts you. No one--not a family member, not a friend, not a stranger off the street--has the right to do anything to you that you do not want them to. Telling is very scary, because you don't know what will happen--the fear of the unknown is what causes inaction. It's a case of "the devil you know or the devil you don't know." Pegasus was right--you tell and get away, as far away as you can. You can't afford to move out but if you are being abused, IN ANY WAY, there are places you can go for help. Just because your abuse may not seem "as bad" as someone elses doesn't make it any less real. If it is still happening you have to--have to-- notify someone. YOU HAVE TO BE SAFE. Please. It's not your responsibility to worry about hurting others by telling. It's not your fault, you are a victim! Take the help that is being offered by you being out of work. I know what you're saying about not earning it, but it is meant for people like you.